Tinki Talks

Hey you,

I thought of you today. Sigh. It feels like it’s been so long since I’ve done so. I’m sorry. I want you to know that I’ve missed you. I’ve missed you a lot. I hope you’ve missed me, too.

Well, I’m all grown up now, you know. Uh, kinda. I’ll be working real soon! Though I know that no matter what, I’ll always be little in your eyes – just PamPam to you. But then, you’re not here to see it all, are you? No. Sigh. I still wish that you could have been there. During my graduation. I wish that you could have seen it. It wasn’t a very happy day for me… But if you were there, perhaps it’d have been different.

There are so many things that are coming and I sure wish you can be there to witness it all. You know? Stuff like getting my first paycheck, my wedding, the birth of my first child, and the second and third and fourth. Haha. Nah. Just two for me, thank you. =p But then, I’m sure you’d still be happy with two. And you’d have so spoilt them rotten. I’m sure they’d love you to bits. They would if they had the chance to.

When I think of you, I just want to turn back time and go back to those PamPam days when life was good. YOU made life good. I long for those days, you know. I did, and I still do. I wish I’d have told you then about how I felt. Well, I’m telling you now. I hope you’re listening. I know we never spoke of mushy things of such. It made you uncomfortable but I’m guessing you knew. I’m hoping you knew.

• I miss those times we spent together.

• I miss those silent moments we used to share.

• I miss the way you recorded my favorite dramas and cartoons for me.

• I miss the way you used to pat me to sleep and re-pat me to sleep each time I moved a muscle.

• I miss the times we sneaked around behind Mummy’s back.

• I miss the times you brought me to the movies.

• I miss the bike-rides in the rain.

• I miss the choose-your-own-birthday-gift tradition we used to have.

• I miss the times we sat on the swing waiting.

• I miss the way you religiously folded your newspaper daily and stacked them up.

• I miss hearing code numbers only you and I understood – “second row, third one.”

• I miss the secret angpow packets the others knew nothing about.

• I miss the PamPam-styled food you’d let me eat.

• I miss the lunches in bed in front of the telly.

• I miss the weekly McDonald’s meals.

• I miss the way you used to banjir my dinner with soup.

• I miss the times you stole rambutans for me.

• I miss the sugarcane cubes you used to painstakingly “massacre” just for me.

• I miss the guava you always prepared that were pickled to perfection each and every time.

I don’t understand how things changed so quickly for us. Time flew by too swiftly and somehow or another, growing-up took me on a different path – one that I saw very little of you. I wish it didn’t. I know you’d have loved to have been wherever I was. But… oh well. I’ll see you again, won’t I? I can’t wait. Hang in there, okay. Wait till I get there.

I miss you.

Love,
Your PamPam

What Love Quote Suits You?

*coughs*

It’s “WHICH” actually.

*coughs again*

Yeah yeah, so I was bored. So what? Wasted a little time. So what? Did me a couple of quizzes. So what? Go ahead. Sue me. I’m in such a rotten mood lately that I probably wouldn’t even give two-hoots about what you think anyways.

*blinks*

Wow. Don’t be hatin’ me, alright. Just feelin’ a little foul around the edges. What was this post about again? Love quotes, was it? Yeah yeah. You feelin’ the love? Nah, I’m thinkin’ not so much. Not right now. Bleh. Okay, fine. I’ll try to focus (and be nice while I’m at it).

“Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.”

Cheh. Will you just look at that! What happend to being original, man?! This is what I call “quote piracy”. Them fancy folks call it “plagiarism”, a.k.a “text-ing without including the proper (and very necessary) citation”.

HEY! It’s by ROBERT FROST, okayyy!
So difficult to write a two-word name meh?!
Sheesh…

*blinks*

I so need to get rid of the wrath within. I can’t even
publish a proper post properly. (No pun intended.)

*flexes arm muscles, cracks knuckles, stretches legs, clears throat*

Honestly, I have to say that I disagree with this one. This is a super-duper-kau-lat-selfish quote. Come on, man. It’d be very selfish to think of love this way. Why? Cos it’s only taken from a very selfish viewpoint – the receiving end. How shallow. Not much love in only wanting to receive love and not give any, no? If all I want is to get, then where’s the love in that? It’s non-existent. Zilch. Nada.

So perhaps it should have gone this way:
“Love is an irresistible desire to irresistibly desire.”

Hmmm. No, that doesn’t really work either. If it were this way, then it’d be just about giving while expecting nothing in return. Yes yes, I know that’s what people SAY it should be about. All that you-can’t-love-without-giving babble. But really now. Think about it. Would any of you really want to be in a relationship that offers you nothing and drains every bit of you every day that you’re together with your partner? Well, I for one wouldn’t desire such a relationship. It’s tiring to upkeep such life-sucking relationships. Unfilled love tanks are a sad sight to behold, you know? They walk around like empty shells. Not a pretty sight. No no.

Love is all about two-way traffic, my friends. Both, giving (without having to be asked to) and receiving (without even having to expect it) are equally as important. If both are offered and accepted simultaneously by both parties, it opens the window for the concept of equilibrium to exist in the aspect of L&R. (Yes, I took Economics, too.) Should an equilibrium point exist, both demand and supply (opposing forces) of love are matched and successfully balanced. And of course, equilibrium brings with it a certain calm and stability that attaches itself to the relationship. Not that things get boring, but a point where both parties are being satisfied with their intake and outflow of love, as well as interest and investment in the relationship.

Aih, let’s not get too technical with this. It’s simple, really. Whatever it is, it all boils down to two-way traffic. it either goes both ways or no way at all. So, I’ll be kiasu. I’d very much prefer it if the quote went this way instead:

“Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired,
and an irresistible desire to irresistibly desire.”

So very the super-duper-kau-lat-kiasu.

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Tinki’s Tongue Twister of The Day
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Say the words, “Publish a proper post properly.”

Did that? Now, repeat the sentence over and over again.

How well did you do? I didn’t make it past 3 times. Dang.

Received some disturbing news today. Been thinking a lot about thinking about nothing for it eases some of the stress that comes from thinking and significantly lightens the load. (Yes, self deception and all that other yada-yada actually works.)

Sighs.

Well, decided to get back to doing online quizzes. It’s been awhile. Well,
talk about in-your-face-cannot-ignore-anymore results. Bleh. Look…

Your Brain’s Pattern

Your mind is a multi-dimensional wonderland with many layers. You’re the type that always has multiple streams of thought going, and you can keep these thoughts going at any time. You’re very likely to be engaged in deep thought and deep conversation.

Great. Just great. Simply fantastic. Just perfect. Grrr. How ironic that this be so. Ugh. Gimmie a break, man. And fine. If not for me, at least for my poor, overworked and very tired brain. My brain and I would be eternally grateful. Thank you for your kind consideration.

Sigh.

If you’re interested in doing this quiz, here it is.
What Pattern Is Your Brain?
Go knock yourselves out.

Sigh.

Hmmm. Perhaps I DO think too much sometimes. And perhaps I SHOULD lighten up a little. You know? Cut my so-called “multi-dimentional” brain some slack. But then again, perhaps it’s a good thing. Hmmm. Nah. Probably not. Not when there are too many thoughts running in parallel succession in this head of mine. Aarrrrgh! Just stop.

Artist: Darlene Zschech
Song Title: The Potter’s Hand

Beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour
I know for sure, all of my days are
Held in Your hands, crafted into
Your perfect plan

You gently call me, into Your presence
Guiding me by, Your Holy Spirit
Teach me, dear Lord, to live all of my life
Through Your eyes

I’m captured by, Your Holy calling
Set me apart, I know You’re drawing me to Yourself
Lead me, Lord, I pray

[CHORUS]
Take me, mould me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter’s hand
Hold me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter’s hand

Sure, it’s an old song. Nevertheless, it’s a really beautiful song befitting of a beautiful Lord and Saviour. Thing was, an amazing thing happened today. (Amazing to me, at least.) I heard the instrumental version of this song right smack in the middle of Parkson Grand, Gurney Plaza! Ain’t that simply fab!? Wow.

SIgh. This brings to mind the few times I heard gospel tracks on the radio. Way, way, waaaay back, of course. Not in recent years. Hmmm. Can’t remember the song titles now but I’m very sure that they were aired. If I’m not mistaken, one was an Altered Frequency song while the other was by Steven Curtis Chapman. Wonder who’s next and when it’ll be.

I really can’t wait for the day when we are given the freedom to blast Christian music (lyrics included) in shopping centers and when radio stations are free to play good Christian tunes over the airwaves. In this case, Christmas songs don’t count.

Praying for the day,
Tinki – peace out.

Yeeeeeessss!

After searching long and hard,
far and wide in good ol’ Cyberspace
for the torrent, I finally found it!
All hail torrentspy.com!

Officially released on the 12th of December 2006, this is an album I’ve been anticipating ever since I caught news of its release date. Thing was, I never found the torrent till today. (No, I don’t buy original CDs anymore and yes, I shamelessly torrent.) See only instantly download, man. Haha. Super kiasu. Well, now I hereby proclaim to the world that I have it – all 16 songs from “Music From The Motion Picture Eragon”! Whoopie for me!

*does a little dance*

This is a way brilliant film score by renowned composer, Patrick Doyle. Somewhat different from the other soundtracks of recent days, it sets itself apart from a lot of the competition with the presence of actual melodies. Kinda reminds me of John Barry’s Out Of Africa and Dances With Wolves. That’s another good composer right there. Haha. Well, this time round, it’s Patrick Doyle for you! Hah!

“Music From The Motion Picture Eragon” brings with it old-fashioned, high-adventure tracks highlighted by a hoast uplifting notes – the kind that keeps you on an I’m-on-top-of-the-world-and-I-know-I-will-triumph high. At the same time, it’s got an I-know-that-I’ll-never-have-to-go-through-tough-times-alone buzz to it. Very uplifting indeed. I like! Of course, together with the album comes Avril Lavigne’s Keep Holding On, and a track I have yet to post entitled: Once In Every Lifetime, by Jem. Will tell you guys more about the latter when I do get around to posting it. =)

Ahem. Anyways, as always, when I find good music, you guys get to reap the benefits. Lucky lucky you. It took me a long, Long, LONG time to get all the song files resized (they came in a whopping 320 kbps – kia si lang) and uploaded (stupid site was lagging) so, here ya go – “Music From The Motion Picture Eragon”, the complete soundtrack. Enjoy.

p/s: Something’s off with the site so the songs are not in the correct order in the playlist.
Nevertheless, all songs are there and I’ve numbered them for your convenience.

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[ Click Here To Download Torrent ]

People sure do weird stuff to food these days.

I have this friend (that I have yet to meet in person) who (apparently) inspires me to be a better, more creative (and very much lamer) writer. When we chat, I find that I come up with the most ridiculous ideas and statements. In fact, they’re so incredibly silly (it’s a nicer word to use as opposed to “lame”) that I felt compelled to share them with you. Such idiocies should never be put to waste, neither should they ever be forgotten. I will look back on tonight and laugh – long, hard and loud. Haha. Tonight, it were these two cases that cracked me up. They cracked me up kau kau. =p

SITUATION: She read my last post
and asked why I approached 2007
as though it was some Secret Agent that
I couldn’t wait to kill, mangle and decapitate.

ANSWER: Simply because 2007 is not one,
but TWO Double-07 (007) Agents!

*snicker*

Quite a good save on my part, no?
Don’t cha think? Haha. Yes yes, smooooth.

And then there was Part 2. JENG!
Aha! The story intensifies as we move along.

She’s stuck somewhere with some stranger by her side who was having a ball of a time farting beside her like nobody’s business. Yuck! Disgusting to the max! *skin crawls* So, thing was, we pushed the thought aside, moved on and spoke about other things – the birds and the bees, the sun and the sky, the moon and the stars, and all that jazz. Then we spoke of “Talk versus Action”. Uh oh. Bad move. Haha. See, the equation quickly became as such: -

[Stranger neighbour who farts] + ["Talk vs. Action"]

= [Tinki's brain searches for words to describe
"Talk vs. Action" based on the available scenario]

Haha. Well, my brain came up with this: -

“Action’s the shit, but talk’s just all fart.”

*blink blink*

Say what?!? Haha.

*laughs head off*

Brilliant, no? I amaze myself. The human mind is a freaky thing. Haha. But true ma. Think about it! Come on, you have to admit that I made perfect sense in the sickest (and lamest) way possible! Haha. Ain’t copywriting cool? It’s amazing what a little bit of wordplay can bring forth. Double meanings galore! She now calls herself my very own Li’l (Midnight) Inspiration. Haha. Rigggghht.

So, how’d I rate on the Lame-o-meter?

Artist: LeAnn Rimes
Song Title: Miss You Like Christmas

How long has it been
Can’t remember when
Yeah, it’s been awhile
Years look good on you
But I expect them to
I sure missed that smile

Look you got me grinning
Bet I’m blushing too
Don’t have to be a genius
To see the honest truth

[CHORUS]
I miss you like Christmas, baby
That’s just how it’s been
There’s that kind of message
Like we were back when
Sure I’ve gone on since you, baby
Lost my heart a time or two
I miss you like Christmas, baby
That’s it, I just do

The leaves begin to change
The first frost is back again
All the cards and pumpkin pie
Jingle Bells and Silent Night
And an all familiar end I can’t deny

[CHORUS]
I miss you like Christmas, baby
That’s just how it’s been
There’s that kind of message
Like we were back when
Sure I’ve gone on since you, baby
Lost my heart a time or two
I miss you like Christmas, baby
That’s it, I just do

Ooh, I miss you like Christmas, baby
That’s it, ooh, I just do

Lulled to bed by LeAnn’s voice the many lonely nights before Christmas ‘05, I hold this song very close to my heart. Sigh. Last Christmas was a difficult one to pass. But someway, somehow, by the grace of God, I made it through 2005. Well, that year has come and gone – bringing with it the memories, sorrows and hurts that had accumulated along the way. Time flew by and before I knew it, a brand new 2006 came along, surprising me with new things in store, new experiences to cherish, new revelations to fathom, new understandings to unveil, new knowledge to discover, and… new people to enrich my life.

Well, today, I stand at the brink of 2006. This Christmas, just like the rest of 2006, feels somewhat different. I don’t know why. It just does. Perhaps it’s because loneliness is no longer a factor. Perhaps it’s because I’m home this Christmas, surrounded by family and familiar faces. Perhaps it’s because I finally found a spiritual family in CHC that I can call my own and who call me their own. Perhaps it’s because I’ve stopped looking around at who others have to hold in their arms and started looking at who’s holding me in theirs.

2007 is just a week away and I’m already getting the jitters. I wonder what’s to come. What will this new year bring? Am I ready for all that’s heading my way? Am I prepared to face what I’m about to face? I’m excited. But, I’m also scared. I’m very much afraid of what lies ahead. I don’t know if I’m ready – if I’m ready what’s in store. Well, it’s still 2006. Sure, it’s coming to a close. But when 2007 finally hits the shores, I know I’ll be ready. I have to be. And I will be. So bring in the funky music, turn up the heat, and let the good times roll. 2007, I’ll stare you in the eyes and face you head-on.

Well, 2007 hasn’t yet come and so, I’ll checkmate it when the time is right. For now, I’ll just be thankful for the very wonderful and fulfilling 2006 and all the goodness that it’s brought my way. Even so, some days just bring back memories of people whom we’ve had the opportunity to cross paths with, pass days with… people we’ve had the chance to share a measure of our lives with. Days such as these bring us back to those Some Days when those people use to matter. Well, 2007 will be a new year. It’ll be a good year. I believe it will. I know it will.

Christmas is finally heeeere! Yay!

“On the fifth day of Christmas my true love gave to me,
fiveeee goldeeeeen riiiiiiiinnnnngs!”

After a whole 12 months of waiting, after 12 months of jingle-less living, after 12 months being devoid of all Christmas cheer, it’s finally back! Woo hoo! And it’s back way better than before! This year, I have Mid Valley Megamall to thank for returning me my Christmas buzz.

“Hark the herald angels sing, glory to the new born kiiiiinnngg!”

I have to admit, due to the fact that my trusty external hard disk has been out of commission lately, my Christmas spirit has taken a longer time to “install” itself. But, thanks to the very-heavily-decorated Mid Valley Megamall, it’s back! So pretty, I tell you. It’s a land of lollies and gingerbread houses there. It’s pretty, pretty, pretty and a whole lot of fun, fun, fun! Wheee! Haha.

“Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the waaaay!”

I’ve just got this thing about Christmas songs. I listen to Christmas songs all year round, actually. Haha. Yes, I do that. So sue me. Why put good music to waste just because it’s not “the right time” to play it? Bleh. There ain’t no “right time” for Christmas tunes, okay. Everyday’s Christmas. =)

“But as long as you love me soooo,
Let it snow! Let it snow! Let it snnnooooow!”

I received my first Christmas gift a week or two ago, a second about a week ago, and I got my third just yesterday! Nice! I love Christmas, alright. Haha. All that sharing, caring, gift-giving, loving, dancing, singing, caroling, mistletoe-ing (not that we have that over here), ice-skating (with fake ice at Sunway Pyramid)… Sighs. It just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

“Deck the halls with boughs of holly,
fa la la la la, la la la laaaa.”

Yes, yes. I’m a sucker for commercialized Christmases. I like fancy-schmancy decorations, pretty twinkly lights, rows and rows of candy-canes, Christmas trees as tall as men on stilts, and plenty of (fake) presents under trees. Sigh. So nice.

“Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer,
you’ll go down in his-tooor-rieeeeey!”

Heh heh. You know what?
If I had a kid, he’d be lookin’ like this just about now.

*snicker*

“We wish you a merry Christmas and a hap-peeeey neeeew yeeeear!
Ho! Ho! Ho! Merry Christmas, y’all! And a happy new year!

p/s: I know it ain’t Christmas yet
but you’re always welcomed to
come back and read the wishes again
on the 25th of December 2006. =)

I really shouldn’t do this to myself so often.

*points below*

You know? The wanting-to-stay-up-but-falling-asleep-and-then-landing-on-your-face-and-getting-up-again-pretending-nothing’s-happened thing… before the cycle repeats itself all over again? Haha. Nah, I didn’t land on my face (though my head feels like lead that’s further weighed down with a heap-load of rocks right now). No no, I love my comp waaay too much to do that. =)

Goodnight, folks. Zzz.

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Personal Message
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Dear Friend (you know who you are),

Thanks for sharing. And yes,
Sleepy Spudgy’s super-duper cute. =)

Signed,
Sleepy Tinki